| Im 60% Retarded!! |
[15 Aug 2006|12:51pm] |
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Way to boost my self esteem!! yeesh!!!!
how retarded are you? (Copy and paste into your lj/e-mail then fill out the answers. Multiply # of answers by 3 and thats how retarded you are :P)
[x] i have walked into a glass/screen door.
[x] i have tripped on my shoelace and fallen on my face.
[x] i have choked on my own spit.
[] ive seen the Matrix a bunch of times and still don't get it.
[] i type only with my pointer fingers.
[x] i have accidently caught something on fire.
[] ive told a cop to freck off and gotten screwed for it.
[x] i attempted to sip out of a straw but it accidently went into my nose, rather than my mouth.
[x]sometimes when i think of something funny, i laugh out loud and people look at me weird.
[x] ive caught myself drooling.
[] ive accidently caused an explosion.
[] if someone says the word "fart", i cant help but laugh.
[] ive turned into a "do not enter" one way road plenty of times.
[x] sometimes i just stop thinking & zone out.
[x] it is POSSIBLE to lick your elbow.
[x] i just tried to lick my elbow.
[] people often shake their heads and walk away from me.
[] people often tell me to use my "inside voice".
[x] gum has fallen out of my mouth while talking.
[x] ive used my fingers to do simple math.
[x] ive jumped off a moving vehicle.
[] i ate a bug for $5 or less.(ewww)
[x]im taking this test when i should be doing something more important.
[] i repost chain letters because im scared of what they threaten will happen if i dont.
[] ive peed my pants when i was drunk.
[]ive ran around naked when i was drunk.(lmfao)
[]ive ran into a golfcart tire when i was drunk
[x] ive searched all over the place for something, and then realized it was in my hand the whole time.
[x] i accidently break a lot of things.
[] my friends know not to use big words around me.
[] my friends like me because im fun to laugh at.
[x] i move my head to the side when im confused.
[x] sometimes i start telling a story and suddenly forget what im talking about.
[x] ive fallen out of my chair before.
[x] when im laying in bed, i sometimes stare at the ceiling and try to find pictures and words in the texture.
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| Bye Bye Domi |
[30 Jun 2006|09:29pm] |
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Well the Leafs really did it this time. They broke my heart. They sacked my all-time fav player. I'm now going to go back and cry.
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[19 Mar 2006|03:59pm] |
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Ohhh look I’m updating again!
The past couple of months have been rough. Still dealing with the stuff that I mentioned in my last entry. However I am doing a lot better. I am still working in Toronto and I am starting to like it more and more. I am actually really proud of myself for sticking it out. I still have the occasional freak out.. but things are a hell of a lot better than what they were.
On the weekends I still work at the pet store. I just don't have the heart to let it go yet. It sucks working 6 days a week but still working there is helping to keep me sain. Leaving there would finally be admitting that I'm all grown up... something I am just not willing to do yet.
Last weekend I had to finally break down and get a new cell. I HATE Motorola!!! I loved my old phone. I had a Motorola t720 but the thing worked awesome for a year and then it became possessed by satin! I had to send it in to be repaired last summer (while it was still under factory warranty) and I was without it for 8 weeks. I got it back and it still had all the problems it had before it went in! It would turn itself on and off when it felt like it... made calls only when it wanted to.. and it would change its sound settings all on its own. I know sooo many people with Motorola phones and they have the same feelings that I do. They work great for a year or so and then they crap out. They just don't make them to last like some other phone manufacturers do. Needless to say.. I didn’t get a Motorola! I have a camera phone now! Woot!
In other news I am once again severely disappointed by my Leafs. They make me want to cry.
Well I gtg.. my rabbit is chewing on something he shouldn't :P Later!
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| The worst month of my life.... |
[29 Jan 2006|05:45pm] |
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Yeah, yeah... I know I'm horrible about it... but what can you do :P *Be forewarned this is going to be a very long bitchy depressing entry... but its my journal.... so deal with it!*
( Welcome To My Life )
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| Happy New Year!!! |
[01 Jan 2006|12:13am] |
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HAPPY NEW YEARS PEOPLE!!!!!!
May this year be better than the last!
*cheers!*
More tomorrow.. now its time for family phone calls!
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[27 Dec 2005|07:18pm] |
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Well no update yesterday due to the fact that I was dead tired from boxing day shopping! Yeah the malls were croweded and I couldn't get anywhere near Best Buy due to traffic, but it was still a good day out. The deals out there were AMAZING!
I managed to score a dressy winter jacket from Reitmans that was usually $180 for $90. It is a really nice jacket and I feel so grown up and refined in it! I can't wait to go back to work to start wearing it! :P I'm not going to use it daily because I want to keep it for work. So my ski jacket will still be getting A LOT of use. Other than that I got some gloves, mitts and scarfs from Bently Winter and a pair of pants... and their not black! lol!
My parents ended up getting a new DVD player because our first one fried after we had it for a year in a power surge... even though we had it plugged into a really good power bar.. and everyting else on the power bar was completly fine. I don't get it. Needless to say they took the extended warantee out on it.. which covers power surges :P Stupid technology.. it's so damn tempormental!
It's so nice having the week off! Gotta love it! Not even working for a full month and I get this week off paid! I love my job!
As for the rest of the week... I plan on relaxing because I haven't had a week off in well over a year. It's nice because I am not working on Saturday either.. so I get to enjoy my weekend as well!
However.. tomorrow I have to do the return run and sometime this week I think I am going to suck it up and get my ipod that I have wanted since the day of their creation. I'm having a hard time with it though because I have never spent my money like this before! It's such a large sum of money... but I want one soooooo bad! It's my graduation present to myself from myself.. I deserve it right?!?! Three years with Brian Bolt.. and I deserve it right?!?!!?? right?!.......
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| Merry Christmas!!!! |
[25 Dec 2005|04:58pm] |
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I know I've been bad at updating again.. but I just wanted to make sure to wish you guys all a Merry Chrismas!!!!!
I hope Santa was nice to everyone! ;)
Happy HoHoHo day people!!
Turkey time....
Talk to you later!!
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| Money Money Money.. I need you! |
[15 Dec 2005|12:42pm] |
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Oh sweet!! LJ is now letting free users update 6pics!!! Sweetness!!! I know what I'll be doing this weekend!! lol :P
Anyways, today is the big day. It's the day of my new works Christmas party. I'm actually getting a little excited about it. However I am still scared because I still don't know very many people. All I can say is that there better be some cute.. non-married.... non-gay (*coughs*...you should all know wny I have those specifications!)I'm sick of being single... been there... far too long... done it.. far to long... and wrote a very big book on it. Time to move on. Everything else in my life is finally in the right spot.. now just to fix the rest of it......
Hmm... what else to write.. Oh yeah this morning two of our reps came in and one gave me this chocolate christmas pizza thing that looks damn good and the other gave me a dvd copy of "The 40yr Old Virgin". Man I love my job!!! not to mention the fact that today was also my first paycheck!!! I wouldn't have mad that much for a month of Super Pet shifts! Mind you when I look at it realistically I have to pay $20 a week for the subway and $240 a month for the Go Train, $50 a month for my phone and whatever goes on my visa.. which shouldnt be that much seeing that I don't like using it....So theres approx $340 gone a month... which leaves me with $$$.. but I forgot to mention that I have to pay back OSAP.. so thats at least another 300 gone... Oy. I've been here for three wks and I need a raise :S Oh yeah.. and the weird thing is that we only get paid twice a month. On the 15th and the 30th.. wtf? I guess I'm used to super pet... every other friday....
I guess its because I'm super stressed still. I still haven't finished Christmas decorating. And I haven't even STARTED to shop yet. To all my friends.. you might not get your gift until after unless I have time... family has to come first.
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| Hello again |
[14 Dec 2005|12:51pm] |
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Well here I am again.... two days in a row!! Impressive isn't it?!?!!!!
I'm on my lunch break and I am horribly bored. It's probably due to the fact that there is NO ONE on MSN! Yeesh... when I am actually trying to do some work.. then I get the messages.... but when I'm bored stupid.... I get nothing!!! lol
Anyways nothing new has happened since my entry yesterday other than the fact that the subway was so frigging slow this morning I could have walked here faster. A ride that normally takes 10-15 mins took close to an hour. That right there is the main reason why I catch the go train as early as I do... that and the next go train after mine would only give me 1/2hr of grace between its arrival at Union and my starting time :P
So apparenlty they are calling for a bitch of a storm tonight and into tomorrow. What fun. I have never ridden the Go Train in bad weather.... so it should be interesting to see if my train actually gets to leave or if they will cancel it again. Yes, I said again... my first week working here they cancelled it THREE TIMES IN A ROW! One time of which they cancelled my train, the train after mine and the train after that. Needless to say my second day on the job I showed up late :( Nice impression eh?!
And heres another thing.. why do we always get a snowstorm when I have something to do? Tomorrow is the staff Chirstmas party here and I wasn't originally going to go... seeing as it is my third week here and I don't know anyone... but my boss and my co-workers really want me to go, so I am. However.. the time that we are suppose to be going to and coming from this party the storm is suppose to be at its worst :S I'm a little nervouse about it because I wont be coming home until after 11 and I'll be coming home in a Taxi :S It's a long ride on the highway in a little taxi cab with a potential driver who has never seen a Canadian winter before:S
Well I should be going. Its 1 and even though I have a half hour left on my lunch, I am going to go back to work because I want to make a good impression. I'm trying soooooooooooo hard.
Talk to you later!
Pet Peeve of the day:
1)People who sit in front of you on the Go when they are sicker than a dog... and proceed to cough and sneeze the ENTIRE WAY without even completly covering their mouths. Gee thanks asshole.. I am finally healthy again and now you are going to make me sick because your a rude prick!! YEESH!
2)Big people who force themselves into non-exsistant subway seats forcing you to be crushed flatter that a pancake into the window. Must have been a nice view for the passing train. Me with my face complety smushed against the window :P
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| Wooops |
[13 Dec 2005|01:16pm] |
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Well since the last time I updated... nothing has happened! :P Except for the fact that I have started my new job! I am working all day every day in T.O and I am loving it! I love my job and I love the people I work with. I really can't say enough about it! The feeling of accomplishment and independence is unlike anything I have ever experianced! However the commute is kicking the shit out of me. My eyes feel like lead! By the time I get home at night all I want to do is sleep! Its getting a bit easier as each week passes. At least thats what I keep telling myself. But I love it and wouldn't trade it in for ANYTHING!
Last Friday night ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) dreamabella and I went to go see the Chronicles of Narnia. IT WAS FREAKING AMAZING! I want to go to see it again... scratch that.. I want it out on DVD NOW! It kicks ass! I still like my HP...but still it was an amazing movie!
Other than that, I have started to decorate for Christmas. Yeah I know its late, and I haven't even started shopping yet.. but with everything that has happened in the past few months I a)haven't been in the mood or b)haven't had time.
Anyways, I should get back to work. I think I am going to try to update on my lunch hours now. Seeing as when I get home I don't want to even look at my computer :P
Talk to you later!!
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| I Love Harry Potter!!! |
[27 Nov 2005|07:01pm] |
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HARRY POTTER ROCKS!!!!!
Last night dreamabella and I went to see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.. IT IS A FREAKING AMAZING MOVIE!!!!
We were aiming to get the 7pm show.. but it was sold out... then we tried for the 8:15 show and it was sold out.. so we ended up getting tickets for the 9pm show.
We were really early (because we got there in time to see the 7pm show) so we left and went to indigo for a little while and then went and got pizza and then came back to my house and killed time.
We left here in plenty of time to get back to the 9pm show.. but somehow we ended up being in the second row! How the hell did that happen?? For the Backstreet Boys concert we were WAY back and we wanted to be up close...and for the movie we were too close and we wanted to be back farther!!! WTF is with that??? lol!
Reguardless of where we were sitting.. the movie was amazing! I want to see it again!. Right now!!!
Yeah there was a lot in the book that wasn't in the movie.. but it was still well done!! I LOVE IT!. I want it to come out on DVD.. tomorrow.. and I want the next book! I LOVE IT!
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In other news.. tomorrow I am starting my first real job. Tomorrow I start working in an advertising agency in downtown T.O. I am scared shitless! Plus I am now broke because I spent a lot of money on stuff I need (ie: clothes,a bag, a hairdryer, my perscription and a bunch of other stuff I need to start work with)
Im so happy, excited and scared all at the same time!! Eeeep!! Im so scared!
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| I'll Miss You Nan. |
[11 Nov 2005|10:41pm] |
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Words can't describe how pissed off and heartbroken I am right now.
First of all... my Great Aunt (my moms aunt) passed away this week of Cancer. Im upset about it.. but not devistated on account that I really didn't know her that well. My memories of her include her getting angry because my Grandpa, Uncle Bob (her husband) and I would all pass cards under the table when they were playing Uno.
I went to her funeral visitation tonight with my Mom.
This morning Mom was home for the day... thank god. We got a phone call just before I had to leave for work from my neighbour saying that my Nan had passed away (she's not my biological grandmother.. but is by every other right of the word). I broke down and started balling but I stiffled it and went to work for the day because there was no point in taking the day off considering there would be nothing I could do at home.
I kept calling home all day today to see when the funeral is and its all happeneing tomorrow. I kept asking my Mom for times because I needed to know what to do about my shift tomorrow at Super Pet. Mom kept saying she didn't know for sure.. which was fine. So I came home after work to pick up my Mom so we could go to my Aunts funeral... and I decided to run next door because I knew that they wouldn't be up when I got home.
Well as it turns out im not family enough to go to the actuall funeral. I just get to go to the "party" afterwards. WTF?. Nan always refered to me as her granddaughter.. and they are always saying that I am there second daughter.. but i'm not family enough to go to the funeral??? WHAT THE HELL??? Its MY NAN for christ sakes. When I went to visit Nan in the hospital she told the nurse that came in and the woman who were sharing the room with her that I WAS her granddaughter... but I'm not family enough to go and pay my final respects? I just get to go to a party????? They say they are going by some list... and they don't stray from that list. I can understand that... but how old is this list????? There is no way Nan would exclude me from anything. WTF is wrong with this??? Oh.. but I should be pleased to know that I was NEAR the top of the "party list". WTF? I am so unbelievabley hurt right now... I can't even put it into words.
Im the type of person that needs to be able to go to a service and say my final respects.. and they are taking that away from me because I'm not "family" enough on some list that was probably made 10 yrs ago. I just don't get it. They say I'm family.. and then when push comes to shove.. I get the shaft in the biggest way possible. Nan wouldn't mind me being there.. I know that for a fact. And then when I was over there today.. they actually asked me if I was upset about not being able to go. WTF??? OF COURSE IM UPSET. Thats MY NAN your NOT LETTING ME SAY GOODBYE TO. Its not fair. This is bullshit. It's just not fair.
Im going to go cry myself to sleep and then I am going to go to work tomorrow seeing that I can't go to the funeral for MY NAN. I just get the pleasure of going to some "party" to be happy. Screw that.. Im NOT HAPPY.. I'm HURT... This is the crule. How could they do this to me? How?
They wont let me say goodbye. I need to say goodbye....
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| Long Rant |
[08 Nov 2005|08:03pm] |
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Wow life sucks right now. I am busting my ass trying to find a job and I am getting NOTHING. I'm getting no where. And I am second guessing everything I've done. I'm so down on everything I just want to quit.
I have less than a month to get my ass into somewhere or I am fucked until the spring. I HATE this. I'm trying to get a hold of teachers at school.. and that's getting me no where... I'm trying to get a hold of the HR person where I did my internship.. and thats getting me NO WHERE. I just want to die.
My parents keep harping on me to try harder when the fact is that I haven't stopped trying. All I've been doing is trying. They keep reminding me of the fact that I need to get in somewhere before the new year.. NO SHIT SHIRLOCK. They keep telling me to call my teachers. I've been trying. Then they have recently started on me to just take a day and go to T.O and just show up at agencies.. when the fact of the matter is you can't get in to the agencies because they are all under a security pass. I can't even move the elevator at OMD (the place I did my internship at).
I hate this. And I hate working in the daycare even more. I go to work everyday stressed... which ends up coming out on the kids and I am scared shitless that she is going to tell me she doesn't need me there anymore.. which the fact of the matter is... she doesn't. She is now overstaffed.. and I am the excess. Im stuck. If I'm let go i'm fucked. I can't go back to working in SP because I will NEVER make enough to pay my OSAP back.. which by the way started THIS MONTH.
I'm sick and I can't get better because I am sooo stressed. This is the 7th time I have been on medication since August. I tried talking to my dr about going on something for stress or depression or something.. and he didn't even want to hear it. I need help. I need a job. My life plan is going to hell in a handbasket and there is not a damn thing I can do about it.
No matter how hard I try.. I just can't get a break. One of the girls I went to school with has had 10 interivews and she had another one today. Yeah she hasn't gotten a job yet... but at least she has had interivews. I haven't even had that much. Not even an offer.
And when I do get an interivew i'll be scared because there is a media test attached to them... which if you remember was a nightmare when I was applying for an internship.
I'm beginning to think that prick was right. I have no business being in advertising. I should just give up. The stress is killing me and its not going to go away until I am safely in a position... which is going to be sometime short of NEVER.
I hate my life. I really do.
I try to be positive... but what for. It gets me no where.
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| Happy Pumpkin Day! |
[31 Oct 2005|09:13pm] |
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Happy Halloween!!!
Well I did it once again. I had the best decorated house on the street. Over 5 hrs of decorating... for a total of 20 kids. Shitty turn out.. but what can you expect... its a school night :P
As for a costume.. I wore my pj's all day. For the people who asked..I was a little kid who was going to a sleepover :P. Screw them.. I wanted to wear my pj's.. didn't want to waste money on a costume.. and dammit I was comfortable!
In other news.. I ended up leaving work early today because.. yup... I'm sick again. I had to go for blood work and a chest x-ray. What fun. Apparently my Asthma (which I am suppose to have outgrown) is back and worse than it every has been. So I am soon destined to be a 22 yr old who has to go back to her paediatrician.
What fun this is going to be. Every time I went to him he always told my Mom to cut me off of the pop, chips and chocolate bars because I was overweight. Each and every time my Mom told him I didn’t eat junk food and I only had one to two cans of pop per week. This guy is a major blow to my self-esteem. But he is the best at what he does… so if he can take the 10 lb weight off of my lungs.. I’m all for it.
Well I am going to bed. I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck. My Dr wants me to stay home tomorrow, but I am going to see how I feel. He hasn’t met my boss.
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| Happy Day After Turkey Day!!! |
[11 Oct 2005|08:26pm] |
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Well Thanksgiving was good. We had our dinner on Sunday and my Grandma came which was nice :). Mmmmm.... Turkey!!! And pie *drools*
Yesterday my parents and I spent the ENTIRE day outside pulling flowers and shit. We still have AT LEAST another full day of transplanting and pulling ahead of us :S. I hate yardwork :P At least I can slip away for a timmy's run! God I love timmies!! Gets me outta everything! lol!!
Anyways, work kinda sucked today. I wasn't working with the people I normally do which sucked the big one. Other than that it's fine. I'm looking forward to Thursday tho.. It's PAYDAY!!. 79 hours worth of pay.. *drools*. Too bad I wont be able to keep any of it. Stupid OSAP.. paying for stupid education that STILL hasn't gotten me a stupid job. Fuck...
Why can't someone just give me a break? I just want to get my life to where I want it to be; and working in a daycare just isn't doing it. Someone help me :(
P.S. Does anyone else find it weird that my Grandma asked to borrow my entire set of Harry Potter Books?!?!
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| The Leafs Lost :( |
[08 Oct 2005|09:38pm] |
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My Leafs lost :(.... Again. Still winless and waiting.
As for my ti-cats... well... we'll just drop that topic :P
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Now for the rest of my life...
I had my weekly shift at SP today. I actually don't mind it now that I am only working once a week. Im not there enough to take the wrap for anything and I'm not there long enough to get pissed off by anyone. Other than a massive flood today that caused my co-worker and I to run around like chickens with our heads cut off trying to get all our cages off the floor.. things were good. Not too busy, not too slow.
My full-time job is going well. There are days I want to come home and scream, but that's typicall for anyone working with children all day. Man parents can be naieve sometimes!
Me: "Yeah.. your son bit another child today repeatidly and drew blood.. AGAIN"
Parents: "Oh.. "johnny" must be hungry. You know you should really offer a vegitarian menu here to cater to him"
WTF?!?! Dude.. We aren't a restaurant... we're a FRIGGING DAYCARE! We feed your child what the GOVERNMENT TELLS US TOO!!!! OY!
In other news.. oh wait there isn't any :( I am still having a bitch of a time trying to find a job. I have been looking non-stop, but nothing I try pans out. It's like life is kicking me continuously in the ass. Everything I have planned out I can't do because I just can't afford it. I need a car... can't get one. I wanted to buy myself an I-Pod with my very first paycheck from my very first real job.. but I STILL don't have one so that's not going to happen anytime soon.
I am soo stressed out because if I can't get into the industry soon I am literally fucked. Internships are going to start in January and most places are already starting to interview for them. Why the hell would they hire me when the can get a student for three months to do the same shit for free? I am soooooo stressed. Nothing is going right.
I have watched FIVE seasons of Dawson's Creek in under a month. I need help.
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| GO LEAFS GO!!! |
[05 Oct 2005|07:04pm] |
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519 days of shear hell are over!!! It's Hockey Night in Tracey Land!!! :D:D:D::D:D:D:D:D:D
SOOO EXCITED!!
Yeah as you can tell I'm excited about the game. I broke out my leaf mobile gear last night.. the car flags, car mats.. the whole nine yards. Its fun. I really missed hockey! At least night I have something to do on Saturday nights now :(
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In other news, Im working full-time in a daycare and I love it/hate it. I love the money but holy shit is it stressful!. It's not my career or anything. I'm still trying soooo hard to find a job in advertising. But it's still not going well. Im crushed.
And to top it all off... i got accused of decking myself and my car out in leaf gear for my "boyfriends" enjoyment.
1) I DONT HAVE ONE
2) Fuck you.. im the biggest fan you'll ever meet.
Gonna go drown my sorrows in some hockey :(
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[05 Sep 2005|09:21pm] |
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The Ti-Cats won!! WOOT! Take that argo's!
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In other news... what I wrote about in my last entry is still going on. Except now it has gotten worse. I don't know how to fix it. I hate this...
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